And, at the end, I just understood that I had to give time to time, stop fighting with it and realize that was not my enemy... it was just trying to give me space to cure my wounds and be brave enough to start again; not by zero, but yes from the point that I may fall some times...but that's because I had thought i found the right way to stand up and it was the wrong one. So now, I'm just knowing me again. Scaring my phantoms and evils and trying to do everything as good as I can.
All good things in life are free...and learning is one of them:)
Step by step.